I dont know.
I really dont know.
Why?


Theres this particular 2 maids that I'll like to emphasize on,
which I've seen today.

Maid no. 1 ;
I was having dinner with my sister.
Then this guy with a cigarette between his fingers came along.
Walked past me,
this foul smell almost made me puke.
And that sickening thing almost touched me.
Luckily i siam away just in time.
Gave that guy an annoyed look.
Then this maid was sitting not so far away from me.
That smoker came and have a small chat with that maid.
This maid became so overjoyed and she was laughing loudly,
non-stop.
Her employer's daughter tugged at her auntie.
Instead of replying her,
she just shoved & brushed her off,
telling her to go play somewhere else.
Kinda annyoing at that time.
And that guy who came and talked to the maid isnt a Bangladesh.

Maid no. 2 ;
Was in the lift.
I was barely inside the lift when she depress the close button quickly.
She gave me this bo chap look and press the open door button.
Again, I was halfway when she close the lift again.
The door slammed against me,
luckily, the sensor sensed me.
Stared at the maid.
She dao-ed me,
I rolled my eyes at her.
I'm like,
it isnt my fault okay?
If it was you,
how would you feel?
And its not funny.


Something ugly this way comes
Through my fingers sliding inside
All these blessings all these burns
I'm godless underneath your cover
Search for pleasure search for pain
In this world now I am undying
I unfurl my flag my nation helpless.


[EDIT]
WTH.
SHIT.
YOU'RE SO FRICKING BIASED.
ESP TO ME.
ITS KINDA DISGUSTING.
NOW IM REAL MAD,
ALL THANKS TO YOU.
DAMN YOU.
[/EDIT]

A dirty chat between jez & me.
HAHAHA (:
we're both sickos


sweeeet says:
breasts are meant to be touched

־ hyena says:
HAHA

־ hyena says:
MINE!

sweeeet says:
aiya,

־ hyena says:
MY LINE

sweeeet says:
i touched urs

sweeeet says:
hahahahahah

sweeeet says:
UR BREAST

־ hyena says:
never!

sweeeet says:
hahahahahahahaha

sweeeet says:
eh, no ur sissy

־ hyena says:
YOU NEVER TOUCH MY BREASTS


[EDIT]
jez's masterpiece! ^^




[/EDIT]

It's so stupid,
I'm actually worrying about absolute nothing.
*gives stupid look*

Raj unexpectedly gave me back my resource file.
I thought that he would forget all about it,
if he had forgotten,
I'd have killed him long ago (:

黑黑的天空低垂
亮亮的繁星相随
虫儿飞虫儿飞
你在思念谁

天上的星星流泪
地上的玫瑰枯萎
冷风吹冷风吹
只要有你陪

虫儿飞花儿睡
一双又一对才美
不怕天黑只怕心碎
不管累不累
也不管东南西北

I'VE PASSED MY ENGLISH!
I'VE PASSED MY ENGLISH!
I'VE PASSED MY ENGLISH!
*SCREAMS*
*SCREAMS WITH SAMANTHA*
Have to admit,
the tension was super high.
Everyone was wishing that Mrs Yeo would call out their index numbers after school today.
Someone told me the first thing she mentioned was,
"The twins did passed."
Didnt hear that.
"Index number 5, 6, etc etc."
INDEX NUMBER 5 PASSED!!
*grins widely*
I CAN GET INTO SEC 4!! :D :D

Yingzhen told me something,
she found that it was super disgusting.
Shant elaborate any further,
for the sake of some people.
I find it SUPER disgusting.
I find it the most disgusting news I've ever heard in days.
*pukes*
Such a...

It was raining today.
Nobody was at the field.
Shouted with all my might,
shout my heart out.
It feels kinda good,
with the rain tickering down your face,
with the breeze blowing you.
For a second,
I did not remember that I had been so sad before.
It feels kinda weird,
but,
my negative feelings have subsided (:

dear jessie ;
strong girls do not cry (:

So,
he found out.
I shouldnt have been too obvious.
I'm not good at expressing myself either.

Now,
I'm getting more & more paranoid.
I dont think I'll be myself tomorrow.

wish me luck!
luck!

if ANANDA RAJ doesnt return me my resource file tomorrow,
I swear I'm gonna skin him alive.
He has already procrastinate it for a week.
& he claims that he didnt steal it,
if bringing something that is not yours back home,
doesnt it count as stealing?
I seriously hopes he'll bring it tomorrow,
I'll kill him if he doesnt.

Now I know,
every happy moments come with a day of sorrowness.
And every good deeds you've done,
no one will ever appreciate it.

I must say.
I'm quite upset.
Not upset, something much more worser than upset.
I can't believe myself either. The first thing he talks about,
is her.

Have it ever crossed your mind that whenever you speak of her,
I feel so terrible inside,
I feel so..
Shattered.

I grieve over everything.
I blamed myself for all the misery caused.
I always thought that you're a pretty nice guy.
Indeed you are,
one of the nicest guy I've ever know.
I treated you as my savior,
someone who rescues me from doing crazy things,
someone who wakes me up from stupidity,
someone who actually took the time to hear me out.

Okay,
I have to admit it myself,
I do feel sad whenever i saw her name being typed out.
Ever wonder why i took so long to reply when I saw her name?
Now you know.
I seriously hope that you won't take it to heart.
Friends?

We went to west Mall again.
We've been going to WM for 3 days straight.
Eating the same stuffs,
eating the same old desserts,
well maybe not for Jez, pf or Sam.
Going to the toilet after eating,
walking at the same old place.
Crazy huh?

Though,
I'm kinda suprised that you're very observant.
No one really did know what happened either.

Everytime I wanna post photos,
I'm always getting so mad.
But yeah.
PM me in msn to get the photos!
I'm so pissed :/


Where are you when I'm having all this fears?

She told me to try opening another blog,
spill out all sadness in you,
spill out all your troubles.
I don't know if it will work, but hey!
Its worth a try right?
And i swear that no one would gain access to it.
That is, unless someone hypnotise me to giving them the web.
Impossible. (:

Here are some of the results i've gotten today.

E maths ; 58.3/100
A maths ; 41.2/100
Physics ; 49/100
Chemistry ; 60/100
Chinese ; 67/100
FNN ; 63/100
Combined humanities ; 80/100

You must be thinking,
how stupid can this girl get?
she deserves to be in the NA stream.

Comments, i dont wanna hear any.
That is, unless it is a good one (:

I've gone completely INSANE.
I've gone gaga over my Combined humanities.
I'm super duper uber HAPPY over my SS & History.
I seriously want to thank Miss Ker for marking my paper.

But,
too bad, i'm not the first in class either.
Someone scored 85.
And Mrs Png has came back and is currently teaching us Combined humanities again!
But i sure do miss Miss Nurul.
She's super good in her teaching,
initially, i didnt understand a single thing.
But now, i do.

Went to West Mall with the guys today,
without sam.
I had the greatest laugh today.
It has been so long since i last heard my laughter.
Laughed real loud at the foodcourt.
People stared as if theres an IMH patient currently on the run.
I couldnt be more happier.

Its like,
being happy,
hasnt been so much fun.


Just something random,

HAPPY 300TH POST! :D

Easy come,
easy go.


I dont know how it happened either,
dont ask me.
It hurts alot,
everyday, every single moment.
It hurts me alot more than you can imagine.

I dont know why he's siding her.
I dont know that kind of "side",
nobody really do understand what kind of pain she has given me.
All she wants is just...

Opening the bottle cap. Filled it up with water.
Speak, speak out all your problems, speak out all your troubles.
Whisper them softly.
Cap it on tight, vent your anger, shake the bottle with all your might.
Throw them all out,
let them flow,
let them be free to this world.
May them,
be gone with the wind.

If you love somebody, let them go.
If they return, they were always yours.
If they don't, they never were.

You do care,
i can see that you're trying.
But do you know that the moment i saw that particular thing,
i felt myself,
being stabbed a million times.
But, just one thing..

Arent you afraid that i'm gonna fall for you?


Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye,
but for now.
All i see,
it was..
it was you.

today's my worst day ever.


imagine,
sleeping in a room filled with sick people,
i'm already down with a fever,
with flu and a sore throat pilling up.
how can i not be sick?

miss lim pulled me to the chemistry lab today during assembly.
i guess she found out.
i shouldnt have even touched the her stuffs.
i shouldnt have even stayed behind,
i shouldnt have even accompained her.

so, she pulled me.
without talking,
i started sobbing madly.
i started weeping as if someone close to me passed away.
i started crying,
like there's no tomorrow.

she told me,
you shouldnt cut yourself, you shouldnt hurt yourself.
i shant say anymore.
she told me to shout it loud into the sky,
shout it to an empty space.

i wanna shout it out loud,
I WANNA SCREAM IT LOUD,
I WANNA SHOUT IT LOUD,
I SHOULDNT BE MISERABLE OVER OTHERS.

i shouldnt have even come online,
i shouldnt have even bothered talking,
i shouldnt have even been tagging at hers,
i shouldnt have even been giving up to my weakness,
i shouldnt have even been talking to you,
i shouldnt have even been born into this world.

you people make me sob endlessly.
i cry every moment,
everytime,
its like a daily breakfast.
i cant stop it.


i'm so sick.
i'm as sick as a pig.
i'm as sick as the germ.
sick sick sick.



thanks shiping,
thanks for calling me up.
thanks for knowing my problems,
thanks.

be a prodigy,
be someone noble.


oh right, get your fucking ass outta here yeah? i dont need comments from others,
i dont heed comments given by some bitch.
why bother tagging me?
oh, you just have no fucking life eh?
oh, then,
i shall not blame you (:

i really dont mind if he starts shouting again,
but if he start to scream & shout at the woman,
i shall not be nice.

i suddenly remembered this "funny" conversation between guohao & i.
at that time,
he was blocking my way.

ME: excuse me.
guohao: *refuse to move*
ME: wei, move lah
guohao: shit you lah cb, wad?!
ME: knnbccb, fuck you asshole. *shoves him aside*

grahhh, i must admit, i was super mad at that moment.
hoho.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
LOVE YA LOADS MUM!! =)
& she really likes that necklace.
:D

sorry sam,
cant post the photos.
havent find every single thing i want.
next time yeah?
sorry!


joyce,
you've earned yourself another scar.
good luck (:

baby,
cry for those who suffer.
baby,
cry for those who's in pain.
baby;
i love you.


its like a gore story kinda tale.
theres happy endings,
theres sad endings,
& theres endings which are never ending.
which one fits mine?
i'll choose neither.

happy stuffs do befall on me,
sadistic ideas are beginning to repeat history again.
angst feelings engulfed my mind once again.

just typical people,
i hate it when i ask something,
you dont fucking hell replying.
well hello?
didnt education taught you anything?
maybe it's because you're so GOD DAMN FUCKING ARROGANT,
thats one way to put it.
you cant just force us to do things that we dont like,
nor do things which will embarass us.

you made me __ __ again.
i'm like,
you seriously know that i will __ __,
why make me mad?
oh right,
you never did found out about that huh?
now,
i've got to cover up for all that i've done.
are you happy now?

if anyone finds out,
nobody will ever speak to me,
they'll think that i'm an insane kid,
doing whatever things she likes.
how about,
i shall not let any single soul know about this,
nobody will ever find out,
people will not avoid me, something like that.
now,
case close now huh?
no, not so fast.
lets wait until it recover shall we?
we shall address it as,
our dirty lil secret shall we?

he seems quite a distance from me,
its not that we're not speaking,
its that,
nobody dares to speak up.
unlike some other busybodies.
i hate it whenever people spreads my secret around.
its so fucking annoying.

& please,
i'm trying very very hard to change,
i shall change,
watch me.

i hate pretty girls,
i hate cute girls,
they make me so sick.
fuck them.
KNNBCCB.
i wont hate my friends who're pretty.
that is,
if anyone admits that they're either chio or cute.
PUI!

when i ask you a question,
answer it,
dont play games with me.


its so fucked up, i hate every single thing. you shouldnt have made me rejoice about it in the first place, you shouldnt have even reprimanded us.
& you, you shouldnt have scolded me for crying. i cried is because i'm feeling mad and miserable. dare i say, i tried using a method, instead, i wanted even more to cry out. cutting myself once again did cross my mind. but instead, i didnt want to do it again is because you him. yes, him.
about him, the issue is this.. he msged me, instead, he chose not to reply. how rude.
i'm so miserable, i wish someone could really really understand my problems.. i want someone who could sacrifice their precious time, to hear me out.

i think, i've beginning to like you even more.
i dont used to know you, but i do now.
but, i do like you alot now, just the fact that you already like another girl..

dont bother ctrl+A the whole page,
dont bother highlighting the paragraph..
it will do neither you nor me any good.
that is,
unless anyone could understand me.

my mum's present (:

sam covered her face! awww :/

TADA! we love you miss nurul!

<3

i'm a happy girl :D
happy happy happy.


went to bugis with the same old usual guys again.
we made a promise,
to go back there and do our shopping.
& we did!

at jurong mrt station,
i was with puifun.
we need to tap our cards in order to enter right?
i think i was too caught up in something,
i tapped the card, wanted to walk past that thing.
it didnt open,
*ouch*
& i was pacing my speed somemore.
found out,
it was another way round,
cant go enter from there.
HA HA HA!

reached bugis.
jessie was having a flu!!
*laughs*
walk around like what others do. =)

went to buy my mum's mother's day gift.
i forgot the shop name,
this salesgirl came asking,
asked me what i was looking for.
i wanted to speak, but she asked me,
"are you buying a present for your mother on mother's day?"
( in chinese )
"uh huh."
sam & jez chose a chain to replace another chain.
need to pay extra $2.
& the box, which the necklace will be put in,
$3!
actually, wanted to change everything,
then the salesgirl signalled to be, telling me to go over.
she said she'll make a deal, since its for my mum.
she will not charge extra $2 for the chain,
& will lower the price of the box.
HA HA HA HA!
such a good deal.
thanks, to that shop (:

i shall post the photos tmr.
I'M ALRDY SO FUCKING PISSED WITH PHOTOBUCKET AND BLOGSPOT,
MAKE ME SO FUCKING MAD.
ARGHH..

my maid says that i'm crazy,
cause' i'm always seen smiling at the computer screen.
HAHAHA!

i thought i lost my hope,
i thought i'm losing it,
i thought he has forgotten me.
but no,
these are just thoughts,
thoughts can be changed,
thoughts cant be serious,
unless you change the fact of thoughts.

why why why?!

call me happy,
cause it really fits me (:


saw mdm soh at the parade square,
the moment she saw me,
she like,
smiled at me?
asked her what is her surname, in chinese.
cause' everytime in class,
we call her,
"lao shi" or "mdm soh".
we never did greet her by her chinese surname.

she's called, "Su lao shi"
Soh Lin Lim. ( in english )
Su Lin Lim. ( in chinese )
*laughs uncontrollably*
she mentioned that among the twins ( my sis and i ),
has the same name as her,
about the same.

okay, it was me.
for anyone who doesnt know my chinese name,
its called,
"Ling Ling"
embarassing ain it?
i find it so embarassing :/

i was the third one to take the chinese oral.
everything went quite well,
except for some stinking words that i cant read.
i got a rocky start,
i kept blabbering, every word i said was wrong.
i said,
"sorry sorry, again again."
i said it in english. i wonder if she understands.
i stumbled a couple of times,
but got used to it.
i havent even finished reading,
she just stopped me abruptly,
how rude.

started having a conversation with her.
told her about my family,
her eyes went WIDE open.
asked me how many siblings i got.
i said 2, 1 brother, and 1 sister.
all the while she thought that i had another sister.
she said sisters are cute.
told her about my sister.
she asked me which sister,
i pointed back, cause' my sister was behind me, reading.
she got shocked again.
and said,
"ni men liang jie mei hen ke ai"
( the both of you sisters are very cute )
i dont agree,
i think twins are hard to get,
ahhhh.. crap.

went to bugis with puifun, samantha & jessie.
i regret not bringing enough cash with me.
it was a last min arrangement.
miss nurul's last day with us today.
i'm seriously gonna miss her LOADS.
she even knows my name!
i bet mrs png dont knows it anyway.
she really really rocks like hell!
she helps us in our combined humanities,
she's going back to uni to study.
GOOD LUCK MISS NURUL! =)


absolute nothing to say,
its been 1 week since we last talked.
i dont know,
maybe i'm just losing it.
dont mind me,
a child losing it is common.


falling,
falling,
deeper,
and deeper,
i love you (:

i'm guessing that you found out huh?
well, thats just TOO bad.


written papers are over!
chinese orals's tmr, english's the day after tmr.
PLAY TIME'S HERE!!

had chemistry today.
quite alright though.
we were suppose to choose 2 questions out of 3 in the section C.
i do do do,
turned to the next page,
i saw the periodic table.
and i'm like..
"HUH? where's section C!?"
HA!
i've done all 3 questions.
chose 2 and 3 in the end,
cause' i feel much more confident about it.
didnt know that yilian did the same thing too!
HA HA HA!!

after the papers,
i went to throw some un-used stuffs,
i almost bumped into irene lim,
looked at her,
she gave me this weird expression,
like.. "uh-huh" kinda expression.


miss lim: so how was the paper?
ME: err.. okok la.
miss lim: so i expect an A1 from my Chemistry rep ah?
ME: huh? how can like that?!
miss lim: of cause can like that! you're my Chemistry rep afterall
miss lim: i shall and will be STRICT in your paper! *smile*
ME: eee! dont like that la.
ME: mark mine not-so-lenient.

i realised i've said the wrong things :/

miss lim: OKAY! so i'll mark yours NOT-SO-LENIENT!
ME: nono! sorry!! paiseh, said the wrong thing.
ME: mark mine LENIENT!!

ahh.. i'm so scared.
she might pinpoint out my every single spelling errors too.
ahh..
communication breakdown.
hoho.

went to mac for breakfast after the chem papers.
went with jessie, samantha, puifun, jie, clara, shenglong and joelle.
joelle & i were blabbering about the fnn papers non-stop.
she's gonna pass the papers with flying colours for SURE (:

went over to jessie's after school.
watched a movie,
i think its callled,
"the texas saw massacare"
not sure, something like that.
shows about a group of people,
travelling around texas,
met some crazy guy on the road,
picked him up.

then this guy took a guy's knife,
held this on his palm,
and used force to press the knife onto his palm,
therefore slitting it.
he kept laughing to himself,
like a siao kin na,
we're like,
GROSS!
after that, he grabbed a guy's arms and dug the knife deep into his skin.

seriously,
after seeing this horrifying scene,
i'll NEVER cut myself EVER again.
and thats the truth!


puifun's birthday's nearing,
next month.
she did mention that she love mac's hotcakes.
i was thinking of making some pancakes for her.
although i know that my standard is far from mac's,
but, its the thought that counts!
just hope that it turn out to be edible.


在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果
爱情是个梦而我睡过头

喜欢一个人
有快乐的时候，
也有伤心的一刻.

我要快乐,
我要快乐,
我要快乐!

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TOO BAD.
dont talk to me,
i'm ignoring you (:

An act or instance of such falseness,
is that what you are implying on?


I LOVE SDA'S CHIAM SEE TONG,
I LOVE WP'S LOW THIA KHIANG,
I LOVE WP'S SLYVIA LIM!!

but i'm so disappointed with Aljunied GRC,
Workers' Party didnt win..
i wanted so badly for WP to win instead of PAP.


am i really that vulgar?
do you really think that i want people to hear what i'm saying?
do you think i said all those things,
just because i wanted attention?
no,
ABSOLUTELY NO.
i just have some problems regarding on how to manage my anger.
i tend to burst out words unexpectedly,
i did not see that coming either.

i seriously DONT care if those people who have views on my vulgarities,
but i do care about ME being happy or unhappy.

at most,
i'll try not to swear again.
or most probably,
i'll never swear again.


[edit]
WOW.
i'm surprised.
i'm seriously seriously surprised.
dont know whether to rejoice or engulf,
but,
oh wells :/
[/edit]


she drifting aprt from us,
havent you notice ?
its so obvious (:


my conscience is clear,
i have no guilt in me,
i'm not guilty,
i'm NEVER guilty.

thoughts aroused my mind;
memories flashed back


i suddenly remembered.
on my mum's birthday last year.. november,
i was at some place, turf city i think
i was walking back to the car,
when a family walked past me.

some girl kept looking at me,
so i looked back at her.
so the both of us kept staring at each other.

i guess it's because she's wearing the school's orientation tee,
while i'm wearing the guides tee.

well guess who's that girl?
that was his secondary 1's ex.

HA HA HA.
how funny.

its actually just a simple problem,
yet, it became a major one.
i dont take sides,
but i know whats right and whats wrong.


chinese was quite okay.
i did gong han instead of shi han.
although i did study for both.

after hearing what you have said,
i began to wonder,
was it a threat?
or was it just something you shouldnt have said.
either ways,
you shouldnt have threatened us,
that wouldnt have helped us in any way,
it will just do more harm than good,
trust me (:

friends are much more important than anything else.

i'm glad some people remembered what i've said.
thanks jessie for that sms ytd night!
i was feeling really really dull at that moment.
thanks! [: [: [:

had maths remedial after our chinese papers.
saw jessie looking a paper.
curious, went to have a look.

guess what?
the paper contains information about our E. maths results.
sometimes i wonder,
how on earth do mdm chang mark our paper so quickly?
its like, one day,
*poof*
finished marking.

i passed my paper 1,
failed paper 2 by 1 mark.
overall, i did pass.
but, i dont really expect this kinda result.
i dont wish to speak my grade out,
but i did pass.

next obstacle,
physics, A. maths & chemistry.
its so stupid.
i suck at both 3 subjects,
i suck at physics and A. maths,
and the best thing is,
both paper falls on the same day, monday.
wth?


I'M SERIOUSLY VERY VERY FUCKED UP,
OH WAIT,
WHO'S FUCKING MOUTH IS THIS?
YES, I GUESS YOU KNOW THE ANSWER,
MINE! ITS MY BLOODY MOUTH,
SO WHY BOTHER?
I'M TALKING TO MR KERK,
WAIT, ARE YOU A MAN NOW?
IS YOUR SURNAME CALLED KERK?
NO RIGHT? SO SHUT THE FUCK UP LAH.
ITS MY BLOODY OWN PROBLEM,
I SAY WHATEVER I WANT TO SAY,
AND THERES NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO STOP MY BLOODY MOUTH FROM SPOUTING NONSENSE.
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO KEEP ADDING FUEL TO MY PROBLEMS,
STOP MESSING THINGS UP FOR ME.
I'M ALREADY VERY PISSED WITH MY OWN PROBLEMS,
WHAT DO YOU THINK?
YOU THINK THAT I DONT HAVE MY OWN PERSONAL PROBLEMS?
AND STOP CRYING FOR GOD'S SAKE.
YOU PASSED YOUR E. MATHS FOR FUCKING GOD SAKE,
WHY CRY?
SYMPATHY? ATTENTION SEEKING?
OH WHAT THE HELL.
YOU'RE THE ONE WHO LEFT PUIFUN ALONE,
LEFT ALL YOUR FRIENDS FOR SOME FUCKING BOYS,
IF YOU LIKE GUYS SOOO MUCH,
WHY DONT YOU BRING THEM HOME?
OR JUST CHANGE YOUR GENDER.

oh fuck,
getting so mad for no reason.

i cannot stand people.
i cannot stand anyone.
i cannot stand people who cry,

but i do LOVE people who laughs with me (:

i thought that you would have took the initiative to do it.
but i should have guessed,
how wrong i was, so terribly wrong.
i shouldnt have been so gullible,
i should have known.
i was lying to myself,
i tried to delude myself,
i tried to make me feel happy.

but i should have known,
that it would not have worked out the way i wanted it to be,
so why continue deceiving myself?

when i know that i'm going to get hurt in the end?
everything i've sacrificed,

just isnt worth it anymore.


cant believe i fell sick.
shit. T__T


had fnn today.
its like.. a pile of SHIT.
actually it isnt that bad, it wasnt that difficult either.

studied till 1 yesterday.
dad scolded me for studying too long.
now, thats a history,
never in my life i've heard my dad scolding me for studying too long.
i secretly took my fnn textbook,
brought it to my bedroom,
off the lights,
changed my hp's option,
the backlight, from 30 seconds to 10 mins,
and started revising in the dark.

i dont know why,
i'm super afraid about my fnn papers.
i didnt want to flunk it, esp fnn (:

about half of what i've studied,
didnt come out.
instead, what i didnt read came out.

overall, it was quite okay.


i hate it whenever you guys leave me alone.
not them,
them.
her.
he.
you only came to me when you did not have someone to hang out with.
it sucks lah,
it seems like i've been used by you guys.
i dread going to elective lessons.
PUI!


thanks suhayl,
i really needed that today..
thanks for cheering me up!
thanks again (:


FUCK YOU ISMAIL.
FUCK YOU.
STOP THE FUCKING LANGUAGE OF YOURS,
STOP MAKING FUN OF PEOPLE'S SIZE,
NOW, WHY DONT YOU GO CRAWLING BACK TO THE FUCKING HOUSE OF YOURS,
INSTEAD OF JUST LOITERING AT MY HOUSE'S VOID DECK,
SMOKING, I SUPPOSE?
DONT YOU HAVE YOUR MALAY LANGUAGE TMR?
FUCK YOU,
SERIOUSLY,
FUCK YOU, STOP SAYING PEOPLE FAT.
KNN. YOU MAKE ME FUMMING MAD.


choices are what you've made,
what you've decided in the end.
so dont come crying to me if yours failed.
i dont fricking care.


may i have the last dance?

To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that you're making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here.


paper 1 was quite okay.
except for the 2 stinking graphs that we were told to sketch out.
initally, i was correct,
but, i've changed it during the last minute.
OH FUCK.
1 mark lost.

i should have trust my first instincts.
oh what the hell.

paper 2 suck like hell.
once mdm chang came in the class,
the whole class's hands were up in the air,
sending a sos to mdm chang.
HA!
including me of cos.

i prefer 20 questions for 50 marks than 6 marks for 50 marks.


combined hum. tmr
i was practically reading the WHOLE chapter of history again.
i prefer social studies to history,
social studies is much more interesting than history.


i was super hyper yesterday.
i couldnt sleep.
i kept thinking that there was a wide-eyed ghost with its wide-opened mouth opened beside me, watching my every move.
ahhh.. my imagination..
how lame..


2 down,
2 more orals and 5 more papers to go


i guess i cant change history cant i?
i guess i cant find out the truth cant i?
i guess i cant really understand what has been going on cant i?
i guess fantasies arent meant to be a reality huh?



so i,
close my eyes,
let the whole thing pass me by.

may 1st.
time flies..
i just remembered,
i was hoping to get to know him during the dec holis
well, my wish came true
it happened in jan :D


i just got some shocking news,
not that shocking to you guys,
but shocking to me,
happened about a few days ago..

most people knew who i was refering to,
in 1 of my previous entry,
about that girl and that guy.
i think the word, "that" sounds mean.
so i'll rephrase it,
"she and he"
oh well..
i am abit TOO obvious in my words.

i apologise.
i doubt that you'll reading this but yeah,
sorry.


i shall blog happy stuffs from now on.
at least, i'll try to blog some happy stuffs.

mummy bought me a new notebook,
a really really thick one.
a black coloured one.

i have used up 4 thick ones from the starting of this year till now.
heh.. i love "spamming" my notebooks (:

i seriously hate those people from other countries adding me in msn,
namely,
nigerian, china, texas, new orlean, united states.. etc etc.
i'm NOT being racist or anything.
but, out of 40 people who have added me,
10% are perverts.
20% are irritating me.

PERVERTS.

"Joyce, wo ai ni!"
"wanna see my huge dick?"
"*Nudge*"
"*Nudge*"
"*Nudge*"
"*Nudge*"
"can you reply me?"
"can talk to me?"
"are you there?"
"are you from singapore?"
"oh you are so cute!"

quoted by them.

I AM NOT CUTE FOR GOD SAKE,
SOUNDS SO YUCKY WHEN PEOPLE SAY THAT.

i cannot stand people who keeps nudging me,
no, i do not hate people who nudge me.
but for people whom i do NOT know,
dont nudge me for people i dont know,
i'll get mad, and i'll block you.
hoho.

once again,
I'M NOT A RACIST.
thats why i blocked them.

one of them even showed his THING in his display picture.
EW, EW, EW, EW!!


having E maths on tues, which is tmr.
i'm gonna work hard and pass it!
yay me!


i'm turning in.
its 0204 now.

bye people!